An episode of severe depression ? #Venlectine, #Welbox.#Pragiola, #Pramolan
I'm 24 years old, I've had a lot of problems with outbursts of aggression for a long time and I very often didn't control myself. When I've had enough of this bad mood, I explode, throw things, hit my head and howl at the sky.
I have always been full of energy, positive, always smiling... Today, looking at myself in the mirror, I see a crutch at my wife's foot.
Previously, crying fits were temporary and out of nowhere. Currently, for 6-7 days I have been sleeping badly at night, I wake up "normal", but I feel some kind of tension and I know that "it" is about to come. I don't want to live, I hate myself, I feel guilty that he is doing this to his wife. I smoked a lot of synthetic marijuana (I stopped completely because I had already questioned everything and was looking for the cause of my mental deterioration). For some time I took Dorete (tramadol) regularly and despite the fact that it is a painkiller, it brought me incredible relief. I controlled myself, I was warm, patient, exactly as I wanted to. When after a few days I felt that the body was getting used to it, I put it aside for a day, two, three and it continued to work. Except that they are opiates.... I went to a psychiatrist, he prescribed me Venlectine. Initially, it lifted my mood and turned up my "highs" - days when I'm overloaded with ideas, willingness to act... I was a truck driver for half a year, but we were very bothered by the distance and I resigned from this job because my wife and I are very close. We have already been through a lot together because I am only 24 years old.
After 2-3 months, despite the fact that I took the drug regularly, it seemed to stop working.... the only thing that zeroed out my libido.
Continue crying... I continued to tell my wife to do something to me, because I couldn't do it anymore.
He changed me to Welbox and added Pragiole.
I took Welbox regularly for 3 weeks - I stopped for a week because I completely doubted it and then I took it for another 14 days (until today), but I contacted a doctor because my psyche started to sit down completely. I also took Pragiole at the same time, 2 times a day, but at first I felt like I was high at work... interfered with my normal functioning. Now the body has got used to it and is working moderately. He is not crazy, but he is able to gently shallow this excruciating mental "pain".
Today the doctor told me to take the first tablet of Pramolan at night, and then for 10 days to take 1 in the morning, one at night. At the same time, continuing the pragiole.
I was afraid that I would become addicted to marijuana, that I would become addicted to opiates... But it works quite differently for me. In the worst moments, I feel the need to influence my psyche with anything to avoid being sober.
I've never drunk alcohol, one beer is a feat for me, and now when nothing works anymore and I get drunk, the worst state passes. Despite the fact that he should not combine drugs with alcohol.
What's wrong with me, what's going on... I'm so afraid that I won't get out of it. That no one would be able to help me. I don't understand how it behaves, how my body reacts to all this.
I would like someone to bend over me, find the reason and lead me out of this hell. I would like to live so much.... and I feel that it is rotting inside.